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The Southern Charmers: Ranked

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Ba-ba-dooooo, ba-ba-dee-ee-ee.

Yes we are back with yet another Bravo ranking! And with one of my favourite non-Housewives shows on Bravo.

I need Whitner to be in the centre next season.

To be honest, I started Southern Charm for Craig Conover. 1) Because he’s handsome af and 2) I was aware that he was like the main Bravo guy (like it’s clear that Andy loves him and clearly favours him over other men on Bravo shows). But mainly for reason 1. I also have a weird fascination with the Dirty South and Southern culture, so while I expected a different format from Summer House and Summer House: Martha’s Vineyard, and obviously Real Housewives, I still didn’t know what I was getting myself into.

With 11 seasons done and dusted, and the 11th season only wrapped up fairly recently, there have been 27 different Charmers on this iconic Bravo reality show.

So, anyways, here are the rankings of our favourite Charmers!

27. Salley Carson
There are maybe only like one or two people on Bravo I hate more than Salley, if that gives you an idea of how much I can’t stand this insufferable pick-me. Whining that other women should be loyal to her while she herself centres her wellbeing around men, Salley is a giant hypocrite with an extremely produced personality for reality TV, like you can just tell her mission in life is to be on reality TV. If you follow me on Threads, you’ll see all the wonderful things I’ve said about Salley. Good lord, please do not renew her contract Bravo.

26. Landon Clements
If Salley didn’t roll around, Landon would’ve been at the absolute bottom of this list. While Salley took pick-me to a whole new level, Landon was the original pick-me of the cast that just exuded massive loser energy. Plus the scene of her awkwardly confessing her love for Shep will go down in history as one of the most cringe scenes on any televison show ever.

25. Thomas Ravenel
Thomas Ravenel was just a horrible man to watch on this show, and his horrible treatment of Kathryn as his partner and mother of his children, as well as his sexist attitude towards the other female castmates, keep him at the bottom of this list. I remember seeing him for the first time and thinking ‘how is an old man going to go on a Bravo reality show’, and my answer was terribly. Also I still don’t understand why he yelled at everyone at that dinner party and kicked everyone out. So unnecessary.

24. Jarrett “JT” Thomas
Speaking of sexist losers who treat women like they’re expendable, it’s JT. In fairness, JT started out okay as like a harmless secondary character (because let’s face it, no one is taking a Main Guy spot from Craig, Shep or Austen any time soon), but then his facade fell and his attempts to come off like a “nice guy” just solidified his absolute gronk status. Also as a general observation, men that look like JT always have the most unwarranted confidence, and I’d like to study the science behind it.

23. Whitney Sudler-Smith
The row of sexist men who have confidence they don’t deserve continues with Whitney. He’s only really higher than T-Rav and JT because I actually enjoy watching the scenes with him and his iconic mother Patricia. Other than that, he’s very unlikeable and comes off thinking that he’s better than everyone else which is so far from the truth.

22. Jenna King
We leave ‘people I can’t stand’ territory and enter ‘people I forgot’ territory with Jenna King. Jenna was not a good fit for this cast, and even just visually you could tell that she did not fit in with the rest of the cast, and not in a fun outsider good for TV kind of way. She lasted just one season which is fitting tbh.

21. Ryan Albert
When I say I had to google who Ryan Albert was and when his face came up and I was like “Oh, him!” On top of that, I tried to remember any big moments featuring him from the show and I couldn’t think of any. I remember him being super handsome and a secondary character, but that’s about it.

20. Rod Razavi
I also don’t remember much from Rod’s time on the show besides his little fling with Olivia and thinking he was kinda charming (ba dum tsh). Kind of deserving of one season tbh.

19. Eliza Limehouse
Eliza was a strange addition to the show, as she had ties with the cast and you would’ve thought that she would have had a bigger impact than she actually did. But she had a little splash on the show and ended up being someone you’d expect to last one season.

18. Kathryn Dennis
This was a tough ranking tbh. I really appreciate everything Kathryn did for the show and we really saw the reality of her life play out on this show; the good and especially the bad, and I definitely felt for her in her toxic relationship with T-Rav. But in saying that, she also wasn’t the best person, and her seeking friendships with the other female castmates and finally fitting in with them, just to randomly turn on Cameran really did not sit well with me. And the monkey emoji sealed the deal.

17. Leva Bonaparte
I appreciated Leva for maybe her first two seasons of the show. It was nice to see a visible person of colour on the show, and using her as a main figure to narrate the struggles of POC especially during the Black Lives Matter period was a solid choice. But after a while, especially as Southern Hospitality kicked off, her role on this show was really redundant, and she barely showed up for group events and missed several episodes during the seasons.

16. Chleb Ravenell
I immediately liked Chleb for being a black man on a cast full of white men, even if his introduction to the show was as Kathryn’s boyfriend. To me, he seemed really interesting and that he had a lot to offer this show. But he was never really given the chance to shine as an individual castmate, and he fell victim to the one season wonder curse.

15. Taylor Ann Green
To me, Taylor had her ups and downs. Like at times I found her really annoying, but then at times I found myself sympathising with her and even liking her, especially during her relationship with Shep. I hope she’s thriving in whatever she’s doing rn.

14. Austen Kroll
I know Austen is one of the main three of the cast, but I simply just don’t like him as much as I like the other two (more on that later). Austen has some shining moments, especially in his solo scenes with his family and when he talks about his late sister… but then you see how he treats women, like they’re expendable and replaceable, and you understand why this man is not yet married.

13. Charley Manley
Just going off the one most recent season she’s been on, I really like Charley. On top of being beautiful, she seems like a genuine girl’s girl and looked like a really down to earth chick. The only thing that keeps her from going higher on this list is her association with Fuckhead Salley. If she hangs around for more seasons, I’d like to see her break away from Salley and form her own identity.

12. Shep Rose
Shep is that guy you love but also acknowledge is a bit of an idiot that needs to grow up. Of the main three, Shep is the biggest Peter Pan boy, but despite this and his other many flaws, there’s something still so likeable about him. He’s the guy you’d want to keep as a friend but never date.

11. Olivia Flowers
To me, Olivia started as another pretty blonde addition to the show that wouldn’t do much and then would leave after one season, but then she showed a fiery side that made me sit there and be like “Okurrr bitch”. She’s beautiful but she also has an outspoken sass to her which is a quality I really fuck with. She definitely deserved more time on the show. I will never forgive Bravo for replacing her with Fuckhead Salley.

10. Rodrigo Reyes
Rodrigo started off as a Friend and then was promoted to Main Cast. In his first season as a main castmate, I found him to still have Friend Of energy so to me he was mostly forgettable. But in season 11, we got to see more of Rodrigo, and while he may not be the loudest or most outspoken in the group, he still held his own and had a very likeable presence on the cast. I hope he’s around for next season because I’ve only just started loving him.

9. Naomie Olindo
Naomie was the first person I noticed from this show before starting it (yes even before Craig) because of how beautiful she was. Besides the times I found her to be quite belittling to Craig unnecessarily, I loved Naomie. She was a great addition to the show, and she definitely understood the assignment as she could be trusted to anchor the cast and be a major player in the seasons she was featured in.

8. Craig Conover
I always had to pick Craig or Naomie over the other, and after some thought, I gave the higher spot to Craig. Even though he’s a bit of a dope, and while on the drink can be an absolute menace (which is great for TV tbh), I do think he has a good soul and there’s almost a childlike quality about him that needs to be embraced in order for him to be safe. Wow that was such a deep psychoanalysation for one of my Bravo rankings. In saying that… #TeamPaige4eva

7. John Pringle
I feel like all of my Bravo rankings always have a strange sleeper pick, and one season wonder John Pringle is definitely the sleeper pick for Southern Charm. Seeing as the bar is so low for men on this show, John coming in and being simply normal was a breath of fresh air for this show. He was a good father to his two kids, was handsome af but wasn’t cocky about it, and just had a grounded sense of energy to him. In this house, we love John Pringle.

6. Venita Aspen
Venita definitely has her messy moments on the show, which is necessary for a Bravo reality show tbh, but I love her and I love what she represents on the show. Minus the one seasons he was on with Chleb, she’s been the only black castmate for every other season, and especially in a place like Charleston, that representation is very important. Venita is absolutely beautiful and has a cute timidness about her that I find adorable. Seeing her get into it in season 11 was definitely a welcome change from her more quiet past couple of seasons.

5. Molly O’Connell
Molly is truly like no one else that has been on this show. When a beautiful girl joins the cast, they tend to cling to the pretty girl trope and are scared of a little whimsy. Enter Molly, beautiful former model who’s obsessed with playing her euphonium and just wants to calmly walk her own unique path in life. And then she also showed up to a Literary Party dressed as Gandalf. We love Molly. More of her please.

4. Madison LeCroy
The main thing I love about Madison is how she is this Southern belle bombshell that looks like she had that silver platter wealthy upbringing, but she didn’t. Madison doesn’t take shit from anyone, speaks her mind unapologetically, knows how to keep a scene going, and seems so down to earth and self aware. After Kathryn left, Southern Charm needed a new female anchor, and Madison has filled that role perfectly, even when pregnant. Plus she always deserved better than Austen and I’m so glad she found it.

3. Chelsea Meissner
Cool is the main defining word I would use to describe Chelsea. Beautiful, as is a recurring theme among the female castmates of Southern Charm, Chelsea had her own distinct personality of being a girl’s girl while also being quite tomboyish in a very relatable way. She was calm and collected but would stand up for herself when the moment called for it, and she was loyal to those that were close to her. I truly miss her on this show, I really do.

2. Whitner Slagsvol
I have not truly loved any male castmate on this show until Whitner showed up on the latest season. With his head screwed firmly onto his broad shoulders, Whitner doesn’t take himself too seriously, can throw some epic shade when he needs to, can check his friends when they are in the wrong, and most importantly, has life goals and passion in life; a rare feat among the other male castmates of the show. In summary, I loooove me some Whitner and he absolutely needs to remain on the cast for at least two or three more seasons. I would love to see him take over the Top 3 as a mainstay on the show.

1. Cameran Wimberly
The original narrator of the show, Cameran served her role well as the connector of the group. She would help resolve the drama amongst the group, serve as the mediator when the situation called for it, but then she would also stand her ground when she needed to. She had a very quick wit about her, and I found her to be really funny especially when she was pregnant. A woman admitting that she never really cared about having kids and then openly not enjoying the experience of being pregnant was refreshing to watch, and then now to see her evolve into an excellent mother is just beautiful.

If anyone from Bravo is reading this, I want you to take a few points from this rankings list:
1) Get rid of Salley for the love of god;
2) Keep Whitner and Molly around;
3) Pay whatever it takes to bring back Cameran;
4) Make sure Landon does not come back whatsoever.

With those four points, this show will have a very long life. You know it’s true.

– by The Black Widow

RHOBH’s Fall From Grace

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How the diamonds have fallen…

For those playing at home, Real Housewives of Beverly Hills was my introduction to Real Housewives in general; you could make the argument that RHOBH was my first love. Once I was hooked, I began going through the other franchises, and now I sit here a self-confessed Bravoholic and Real Housewives fanatic.

But you never truly forget your first…

Well, until your first takes a massive nose dive in terms of quality and entertainment and becomes the least watchable franchise of all the Real Housewives franchises.

Let’s take an unnecessarily deep dive into what made Beverly Hills so good, and where the disconnect with fans such as myself came.

Oh, how the mighty have fallen… (CREDIT: Bravo)

From its conception, Beverly Hills was immediately recognisable for its lifestyle porn and this is what set it apart from other franchises that existed at the time like New York and Atlanta. You had the obnoxiously enormous wealth of Lisa Vanderpump and Adrienne Maloof, in the Rodeo Drive setting of Beverly Hills, and you had an evolving group of women all with the healthy balance of delusion and aspiration for glamour. On top of this, the cast members put in the work to create compelling and real drama, to the point where I firmly believe that the first two seasons of RHOBH are some of the best Real Housewives seasons ever.

This momentum continued on, through accusations of witchcraft and doing coke in someone’s bathroom, until around season eight, which fans proclaim to be one of the worst seasons ever. Tbh I can’t even remember much from this season, besides Snoreit being super late to a lunch with Teddi, and Erika reading a lil frightened Teddi for filth for being accused of having pretend amnesia. On top of that, season eight saw two unfortunate recurring themes begin here:

1) They used a friend of (Camille) as the main villain for the season, and;
2) The unnecessary alliance of the Fox Force Five really sprouted here.

No Housewives season ever should use a friend of as a main season villain for the sole purpose that they are not a main cast member. If a cast is that desperate for a villain that they’re willing to get a friend of to fit that role, then something is wrong here.

In addition to this, Housewives alliances can be good, but they are mostly detrimental to the franchise as some housewives will even attest to, and the Fox Fraud Five are largely considered the worst Housewives alliance ever. Because five of them controlled the majority of the cast, it just seemed like anyone who was not in that group were immediately considered outsiders, and in an ensemble cast show where all of the women are meant to bond in some sort of way, it makes that objective sort of impossible to achieve.

Season nine, while introducing one of my all time favourites in Denise Richards, also saw a decrease in entertainment value as the main source of drama for the season was whether Snoreit gave a dog back to a shelter or not. This pitiful excuse for storyline was blown up that much that LVP refused to film with any of the other cast members besides Denise for the majority of the season (and ultimately skipped the reunion), and production were forced to pivot to find another person to fit the main villain role for the season… so they resorted to friend-of Camille for the role again. Watching the women gang up on this iconic friend-of at the reunion really began to signal the beginning of the end of the golden years for this franchise.

Speaking of gang ups, season ten saw one of the most heinous gang ups in the history of Real Housewives as the Fox Fraud Five led a blind charge against Denise solely because Denise didn’t want her children to overhear adults talking about sex, and Denise may or may not have had consensual sex with another woman. This was a prime example of how alliances, especially the Fox Fraud Five, can ruin a franchise, because any member of that group was basically untouchable while everyone else was considered fox food. And they all turned on Denise so hard I’m surprised they didn’t catch whiplash from it.

And genuinely, from season ten onwards, my interest in the franchise has noticeably slipped, to the point where we’re at now after season 15 has finished airing that I confidently believe that RHOBH is the worst franchise out of all of them, and it would take a miracle to revive this dead franchise from the ground.

For starters, the lifestyle porn aspect of RHOBH slowly disappeared after LVP’s dramatic exit from the franchise. Sure, Kyle is still wealthy and boring af; Snoreit likes to exude wealth in her obnoxious designer label outfits; and this was the city that really introduced glam squads thanks to Erika Jayne; but the aspirational wealth of these women became less and less prominent, and the perception of them changed from having “fuck you and your mother” money to just having a lot of money. Their nice houses just don’t slap the same when someone isn’t walking a camel through it.

Even though the Fox Fraud Five has since dissolved, their damage had been done, and the cast became so fractured and disjointed that you truly didn’t believe that they were all friends by the end of it. When Garcelle, Sutton and Crystal became a fan-favourite trio in seasons 11 and 12, it didn’t really seem like a true friendship, but more of a friendship of convenience because they knew they were the outsiders compared to the FFF and they had to stick together if they were expected to survive. Plus, we all know how fake the friendships within the FFF were.

On top of this, some of the casting choices over the past few years were absolutely abysmal. Annemarie Wiley will go down in history as one of the worst housewife castings of any franchise ever, and trailing not so far behind her was the utterly bizarre casting of Diana Jenkins. Annemarie’s main storyline was Sutton’s esophagus, and Diana lacked any shred of human empathy that makes a housewife even remotely likeable.

And now, for the cherry on top of the RHOBH Downfall Cake – and this is something that I think is a major fault of most if not all of the Housewives casts across the board – is that the cast have become too aware of their edit and how they present themselves when the cameras are up. Of course, I can understand that whenever a camera is present, you automatically become more self-conscious and aware of yourself and how you come across on screen, but what made the golden years of RHOBH so good was that the women were showing their true authentic selves, and nothing about it seemed self-produced at all. We all knew where we were when Kim accused Kyle of stealing her goddamned house, because that pain from Kim was so real that it was almost uncomfortable for us viewers to watch.

Now, we’re stuck with Kyle the lesbian pretending that sending her kids to college was showing the deepest and most raw parts of her life, meanwhile she’s questioned other women’s marriages, sexualities, finances, and livelihoods all for the sake of the show ratings; we’re stuck with Dorit still pretending to live a life of wealth yet we all know she’s facing money struggles, and her pretending that going through a divorce is equal to the life of a war-torn child in the Middle East; we’re stuck with the women pretending like Amanda Frances was this massive gamechanger disruptor to the cast, when in reality she was a small raindrop compared to the tsunami disruptor that was Brandi Glanville; and we’re stuck with women too scared to speak up and say what’s truly on their minds for fear of a bad edit.

These women are so aware of their edits that very little of what we’re getting is real, and we’re left to question what is actually going on in these women’s lives. As fans of reality TV, we shouldn’t be second guessing what we’re watching on screen because the show should be producing raw and real entertainment. Instead, we’re being fed scraps with a cast that’s too lazy to get off their asses and do the fucking work.

I want to see RHOBH come back from the grave and be as good as it once was, but for that to happen, there need to be some major changes. Like I’m talking RHONY season five levels of recasting, because this cast can’t thrive and we can’t enjoy the show for what it is if we’re forced to endure Vile Kyle vs. Snoreit for the third season in a row with Sutton throwing in quirky one-liners every now and then and Boz blindly agreeing with anything Snoreit says.

In conclusion, I’m going to leave you with five choice words: Give Dorit Her Pink Slip.

Please. For the love of all that is holy.

– by The Black Widow

So The Devil Wears Prada 2 Certainly Happened…

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One of the highlights of my year turned out to be not what I expected…

If you are a millennial and you’re a gal, gay or they, then you probably have an affinity for the 2006 comedy-drama film The Devil Wears Prada. Featuring a trio of absolutely incredible woman in Anne Hathaway, Emily Blunt, and Meryl “Can Literally Do Any Role Perfectly” Streep, The Devil Wears a Prada ushered in a cinematic masterpiece of high fashion, low cunning, and the boss from hell.

But my god, the fashion… iconic! Everyone knows where they were during that iconic Anne Hathaway outfit change montage to Vogue by Madonna.

Icons. Icons. Icons. Icons.

So if you’re a millennial gal, gay or they, then you were absolutely looking forward to The Devil Wears Prada 2 as much as I was. The iconic trio, as well as the effortlessly talented and handsome Stanley Tucci, all returned for a sequel 20 years later in what I’d like to think was one of the most highly anticipated sequels ever.

Now before I get into it, I want to preface this by saying this is not an official Widow’s Lure review. Instead, this is just me sharing my thoughts on the film in a constructive manner which does not suit the template that I’ve set for a Widow’s Lure review.

And it goes without saying, SPOILERS AHEAD. You have been warned.

I just watched The Devil Wears Prada 2 in an advanced girls night screening, and I expected a little fanservice because it was clear just from the trailer that that’s what they were after; reuniting the main four in the same environment with a new story, new drama, and new high fashions.

But from the first almost three or four minutes of the film, you can see so much blatant fanservice from the first film that the novelty quickly dies off and you understand the real purpose of the film. Like immediately, you could tell the directors were like “Hey yo, how many references to the first film can we make in this little introduction Andrea walking in NYC scene”? And it became very clear, this movie wasn’t made to tell a story; it was made to pander to the diehard fans from the first film, and it did not land the way it intended.

From the jump, it was almost like they were grasping at any reason to reunite the characters in the most unrealistic ways possible, and after quickly – and I stress the word quickly – putting them all in the same room through the sheer power of Prue Halliwell, the purpose of the film became clear, and it quickly unraveled after that.

To make it worse, as the movie progressed, it just seemed like they were making the plot up on the spot and just told the actors to just ‘wing it’ and ‘see what happens’, because the plot of the movie was so all over the place and did not have a clear direction. Like at no point did I know where the movie was going to go and where it was going to end, and not in a fun thriller kind of way.

I also feel like some of the character’s motivations and their personalities kind of disappeared for the sake of the movie. Andy’s fierce independence and passion for journalism disappeared and she quickly found herself happily up Miranda’s ass again. Miranda herself had her cold and bitter moments, but they were marred with some nice and character redeeming moments, which I don’t think suited the character personally. Just because she’s an icon, doesn’t necessarily mean she needs to be a hero, because the appeal of Miranda Priestly is in her being a capital K khunt. Even Nigel lost some of his sass and zingers to be a crowd-pleasing supporting character. It was just disappointing.

At least Emily was still a bad bitch.

I wouldn’t say I hated the movie, but as a big fan of the original, I can say that I was disappointed by how lazily the sequel was executed. This could’ve been so much better than what it was, and I feel like the actors and us the fans deserved a lot better. If you’re thinking of watching this film, I would say give it a go, but don’t be surprised if it disappoints you. I mean, I know I won’t be watching it again.

Oh well. At least the fashions were still iconic.

– by The Black Widow

Three Things I Learned About Myself While Filming Heel Turn

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And now for a self-indulgent post.

Hello Widow’s Lureans. I know I’m super inconsistent with posting on here, but it’s actually a goal on my vision board to write more and post more on here. So to quickly catch you up to speed on the past couple of years of my life:

– My parents have been living in Fiji for the past three years, which means I’ve been living in their house rent free so I could save more spend more money on clothes and beauty. Nikki maintenance is very expensive.
– Still at the same job which I enjoy most of the time.
– Still wrestling, still slaying in the ring and out. Still paired with my soulsister Frankie B, while also exploring solo opportunities as well.
– Had a crew film a documentary on me which premiered at the Mardi Gras Film Festival 2026 and was a hit with the people in attendance.

Just a casual documentary. You know, no biggie.

Talk about length. Talk about drama. Talk about stones. Talk about comfort.

The aptly named Heel Turn focuses on myself and how I navigate the wrestling world as a queer transwoman of colour and how wrestling has helped and harmed me. But specifically, how I play a villainous character (heel) when society villainises parts of my identity that I can’t control anyway.

Over three separate days of filming (training at the PWA Academy, performing on a show in a match against Cosmo Cooper, and capturing some moments of me at my home), the wonderful crew worked with me to capture the real moments that show public Nikki and the vulnerable Nikki all wrapped up in an eight minute short film/documentary. Not only did I show them Nikki Van Blair, the ultra glamorous, confidently sexual and magnetically bitchy Queen Bee, but they also interviewed the somewhat serious, outspoken and unapologetic Nikki Hamilton, and in those moments, I found that I learned a few things about myself that I wasn’t consciously aware of before. I’m very intrigued by the psychology of humans and how everyone is fundamentally different from each other, and as someone who is as self-reflective as me – some would say I am too self-reflective –  I love discovering new things about myself, why I do things the way I do, and why I react to things the way I do.

So as an interesting thought piece, I wanted to share a few things with you that I learned about myself during or after the filming of Heel Turn with this fabulous crew.

1. I don’t have emotional walls built up; I have a door that I control.
We all know the saying that someone has walls built up to protect themselves from getting hurt. These walls can be beneficial, but in turn it stops people from getting to know the real you. I participated in a podcast interview for LGBT In the Ring with the director of the film Isabella, and she made a comment that I have a wall built up. I understand why she came to that conclusion because I know I do have a very noticeable public persona, but I respectfully disagree with her labelling. I don’t have a wall that people need to chip down or hurdle over; I have a door that I willfully control, and I can freely let people who deserve it into my inner thoughts and feelings and become vulnerable with them if and when I choose to. This documentary wouldn’t have worked if I refused to get raw and real with the team, and I found it easy to not only show them the Queen Bee, but also the woman who walks through life and navigates the wrestling world carrying an invisible burden through spaces that no one else has to think about. And that’s because I control that door, and I control that door handle.

2. I watch way too much Real Housewives
Now I’m very aware that I watch too much Real Housewives, but the actual point I want to make here is new to me. There is a point where the crew asked me how I felt after planning my match with Cooper, and by all means it was an easy and seamless experience as Cooper is great at what he does, he’s a professional, and I trust him not only as an opponent but as a friend as well. But because watching rich women scream at dinners has become second-nature to me, and knowing what they have to do as part of their job to create drama and entertainment, I brought up a small point of contention to the cameras between Cooper and I during the planning conversation. This was not fake or ‘produced’ in any way as it was something that I had genuinely felt in the moment. However, it was such a small thing to note that not mentioning it would’ve honestly sufficed, but because I’m a Bravo-holic, I brought it up. Because I know what makes good TV. Thank you Tamra Judge.

3. My story in wrestling is a lot more interesting than I originally thought, and is one that needs to be told
I feel like everyone can relate to this. Because I am living my own life in real time and experience everything I experience, none of it seems overly fascinating or interesting to me since it’s all real to me. But talking to the crew about everything in my life, personally and professionally in wrestling, and them being so fascinated with the everyday workings of my life, actually made me realise that my story is interesting. Not only that, but verbally coming to the realisation with the crew that I’ve knocked down a lot of doors for future queer folk in Aus wrestling, helped me realise that my story is a story that needs to be told. Because who doesn’t like a real story of someone who has to fight through discrimination, invisible walls, and moving through spaces with an extra weight on their shoulders, and creating a legacy for others to catapult off, because in reality that’s what I’m doing, and it’s incredibly humbling to realise.

I know that I take a lot of time to look within myself and self reflect, again some might say that I do that too much, but making these realisations about myself during or after the filming of the documentary have helped me to understand myself more and acknowledge that my journey in Australian professional wrestling is full of unchartered waters and untrodden path that will helpfully make it easier for future wrestlers of all the tribes that I proudly represent – Pacific Islanders, LGBTQIA+, women.

While the Mardi Gras Film Festival – and its on demand service – has ended, Heel Turn might be popping up in new online places, so keep your eyes and ears out because this short film will make you laugh, make you reflect, and might even make you cry. If I dare say so myself.

And you might even learn a new thing or two about me after watching it.

– by The Black Widow